“Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.” Einstein
Yesterday my daughter informed me, rather matter of factly I might add, that Sleep Paralysis is a thing.
I was devastated.
Me: NO! That’s not a thing! DAMN YOU, SMARTY PANTS CHILD!
Her: Oh, it’s a thing, Mom. Google it.
Me: Oh hell to the no.
Sleep Paralysis happens when you are half awake, half asleep and you can not move. You wake up, completely aware of your surroundings and yet you feel paralyzed. Has this ever happened to you? Because it has happened to me many times over the years and it is FREAKY. Someone once told me that this is because you were having an out of body experience and you’re half in, half out. I used to have a lot of kick ass flying dreams, so I figured, okay sure. That sounded feasible. I could get behind that thought, because it was kind of a fun dream state adventure time thing. Out of body experience fall out? Um, totally acceptable explanation.
We’re all just a bunch of star dust momentarily gathered together in the not very real time space continuum. Because we’ve agreed to accept the illusion, it is real, but not really. Reality is perception.
Before you think me completely daft, let me stress that the very nature of what we perceive as reality is tenuous at best. In fact, reality is an illusion. It’s a trick of the light, a construct of our minds, manufactured evidence of our experience and even solid things are not, actually, solid. We’re all just a bunch of star dust momentarily gathered together in the not very real time space continuum. Because we’ve agreed to accept the illusion, it is real, but not really. Reality is perception.
Perhaps, then, Sleep Paralysis happens when our perception is altered enough to remind us that, this isn’t real.
I’m not a physicist.
Still, the confirmation that this horrid state of being, which I deeply dread, is ‘a thing’ is disturbing on many levels. Knowing now that it’s a thing gives it a strange sort of power. I thought it was just me. Thinking it was just me was comforting. Is that weird?
I felt the same way when I discovered that Restless Legs Syndrome was a thing. I thought I just had a strange need to wiggle my legs before I went to sleep. Suddenly, it was a thing! A thing other people had that could be controlled with Parkinson’s medicine. What? Are you freaking kidding me?
I decided to ignore the facts and pretend that it wasn’t a thing, just me wiggling my legs for no apparent reason. Since making that decision, I have found that it happens less frequently. Perception can affect reality, did you know that? Yup, that’s a thing.
Therefore, I am not going to give this Sleep Paralysis any further thought. It may be a thing, but it’s not my thing.
Denial, now that’s a thing in which I can believe.